Sam Smith’s song “Stay With Me,” will forever be my anthem for the summer of 2014. Despite my belting out I’m on my knees only to realize much later the actual lyrics are You’re all I need. The month of August came and went blasting me into new perspectives and refreshed determination. I started securely and ended with so much uncertainty. I lost my job and I thought my marriage was over.
Through the last two months I have been blessed with compassion and understanding from so many connections. My appreciation for friends, family and colleagues who reached out, both in direct and subtle ways, can never be explained. I am truly honored for all of the people in my life, those who are still present and those whose paths crossed at opportune times. The lessons I have learned through stressful times and challenges difficult to overcome, have been invaluable.
Thank you to my family for unconditional love and support. For encouraging me when I was down, for special unexpected deliveries, for sharing your own personal stories of heartache, for offering reading material, opening your home to me and for being a faithful ear. I am so thankful for an incredibly unique cast of characters I get to call my family.
Thank you to my friends who are like family. Attending a stress relieving happy hour, receiving a letter or phone call, and meeting up for a meal has been powerful tools in helping me maintain sanity. I know in the last year I have lost my emphasis at staying connected to friends as my energy has been devoted elsewhere. I am touched to have so many friends who intentionally make themselves available for me.
Thank you to former colleagues in my recent position. I have regrets with how things unraveled and I didn’t have the closure I wanted with the team members, residents and families I had grown so attached to. I appreciate hearing there is no animosity directed towards me, only understanding it couldn’t have been any different, so I will continue trying to make peace with it. The connections I made there, my advocacy for the team and their hard work was all genuine. My hope is some of the progress we had made will stick beyond my employment.
Thank you to my daughter for tolerating the uncertainty in our lives in stride. She was during this time and continues to be my everlasting joy.
And thank to my husband for clearing the muddy waters, for recommitting to why we are together and the future we will develop successfully. If there is anything we have learned in our six loooooonnnnggg years of marriage, it’s that it takes work. I know we are prepared to put in the overtime necessary to get life back on track and we are already well on our way.
Life happens for a reason and the challenges we are presented with have purpose. I know this to be true and in the midst of crisis, this reminder came from my friends and family. Because of the love I felt during the hard times, August was the both the best and the worst month, and I felt so much happiness despite my life’s circumstances.